ive just gotten into the web revival. so cool !!! I am excited to learn how to code and make my site my own little world for me. mwahaha.:p I think I might be doing this partly because I feel like a boring person at the moment. I broke up with my ex, and then it seemed like they didn't want me anymore, or never really did. And so I guess that maybe contributes to it? anyways its okay because other times I feel like a really interesting person lol. I realized after the fact (as you do) that their validation was what i rly craved (p sure), even when things were good. And the remnants of that feeling might be lingering. So maybe in making this I can prove to myself that I'm not a boring person. Or in any case I can document my days to prove to myself that I am living a life, constantly moving, alive, my heart beating in my chest, my breath pulsing, and I'm never really aware of it. But it's happening. Sometimes that's what it feels like to be alive. To not really be aware of it, but its happening. I don't really like when life feels like that. But sometimes it's like that. And maybe its beautiful really. That I can keep going, without any decision in the matter :). thats a lie i made a decision about a yr ago that I'm really glad to be on this weird ride. And its true. i am. i feel like a dumb mofo saying that bc i've had it ea-z pea-z lemon sqee-z. i'm the luckiest mofo in the world. i have so many days. and i want to do everything. including making a silly stupid website. so thats what i'll be doing now.
